You've lost something. Your heart has been ripped out, torn to shreds. You don't know if you will survive it.
Just this week I was made aware of two precious ladies I know who miscarried their babies. In fact, ALMOST ALL the moms I know have lost a baby in miscarriage. It is one of the most horrendous things to have to endure in this life. What makes it even worse is that there aren't any good answers. Sometimes it seems like if you can just find someone to blame or some reasonable explanation, you can weather the waves of emotions that flood your being.
Then, once you are able to even get out of bed again, you have to smile through all the idiotic things people say like, "you're going through this so you can help other people in the same situation," or "you'll have another one," and other insensitive and asinine statements like that. (Side note: "asinine" is a very good word. Word of the day, if I might suggest.)
The facts say that you have lost. The facts say that there is no life in you. The facts say that someone should be at fault. The facts come up empty.
But then, there's the TRUTH.
The truth is God has never left you or turned His heart away from you. (Deut. 31:6, Deut. 31:8, Josh. 1:5)
The truth is that you will have trouble in this life, but that you can take heart because Jesus has overcome this world. (John 16:33)
The truth is, when you pass through the waters, He is with you. (Is. 43:2)
The truth is, Jesus understands your deepest heartache and feels it with you. (Is. 53:4)
The truth is, He knows how you operate, He understands your limits and He gently leads you. (Ps. 103:14, Is. 40:11)
The truth is that NOTHING can separate you from His love. (Rom. 8:38-39) Not even the pains of losing a baby.
His love flows down and covers you. Even when you are not aware of it, even when you are not able to receive it, even when you are angry with God. Nothing can stop His love! God PURSUES you with His deep, passionate, wild love. His love will restore you. His love will bring you new life. His love will heal up your brokenness. His love will move you forward. His love will make you live.
When you find yourself stuck in the filth at the bottom of the lowest emotional cavern in the universe, let your Lover hold you and cry with you. He has been in that cavern before. He hated the idea of your being there so much that He died a cruel death, bore your darkness and death in his own body and then stormed into the Darkness to get the keys to that awful place. Jesus has the keys to that prison and He's opening the door for you. Go with him through the prison door and let Him lead you back into the light where you were meant to be.
If you can be quiet and just sense God's presence, you'll realize you are being held.